It's been a long time since I last posted but hey, what's up? How you doing? If you ask me of my life now, well, I finally graduated from college and I currently work in a company. It's a big step up I guess. I'm working for more than 5 months and I don't know what to feel. I'm very happy that I have a job. I'm contented with my salary but there's something I still can't find. Maybe a sense of purpose. I seldom ask myself, "Why am I doing this?" and the only answer I get is "I need money for my future." I think that's one of the sad truths of working. You work for money like it is your boss. Well, I can't be satisfied with that. I need something to fill my cup. I'm not yet in a crisis against myself. I just think that I need something that can make me smile not just because I earn but because I do something that interests me, I help someone who is (really) in need or I contribute to the whole being of a person or to the society (sobrang taas lool). But seriously, money alone can't satisfy me. I graduated in Finance but I still don't think we should value money more than life and more than the people around us. Please don't think that I came from a well-off family because I'm not. We have all the things we need but there are days when money is a problem. I just don't think money can be a bandage to patch a missing piece in your life. Yes, it is important but you just need to be wise in using it.
Do you know the japanese word, "Ikigai"? It means "a reason for being". It is a crossroad of what you are good at and what you love doing. It is something I still look for. Seeing myself doing what I love, what I'm good at, what the world needs and what I'm paid for is the most wonderful gift I can have. It's too good to be true but who knows what might happen *cross fingers*. Actually, I can't imagine myself working for more than 20 years. I simply can't think of myself following the steps of my parents who are working for years.Though I salute them for that, it's like a big sacrifice for me. It's like I sacrificed my happiness for work looool. Maybe after I finally reached all my goals, I'll stop working. Lord wag after 20 years! I don't want to stress myself working for a big and wealthy company. I want to do what makes me happy or maybe I can make my own company or an organization that can bring happiness not just to myself but to others as well. If I have no choice but to work (please no), I want to work with people who is just starting at the bottom not big companies who can handle themselves. That's the reason why I favor people who are at the bottom. Sorry hehe. For me, helping someone who is already on top is like buying Starbucks mainly because people see it as a status symbol and Starbucks see it as an income. It's like helping the rich get richer and the best get better while you get the Starbucks (At least it's Starbucks). I want to be different. I want to change someone's status, not their societal status but their whole being. I know I'm a bit too dramatic, ambitious or something but that's who I want to be. I don't know how and I definitely don't know when but I'll just pray and wait for my Ikigai. But for now, I need to help myself first, save a lot of money and make money work for me! (Go, self)
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